Day 2 - 2 Nephi 10:24 "Wherefore, my beloved brethren, reconcile yourselves to the will of God, and not to the will of the devil and the flesh; and remember, after ye are reconciled unto God, that it is only in and through the grace of God that ye are saved."
"Nephi asks us to conform, to adapt our will to the will of God. when we act on our compulsive / addictive behavior, it is because we want something we can't have [or rather, it is because we are drowning something else out!]. Our will is at odds with the will of God. We have surrendered it instead to the will of the flesh or the devil (two different phenomena, by the way). Write about the struggle you'd like to be saved from, and whose power it is that can save you. What is that power called?"
Oh sigh, how is it that these scriptures and questions come up coincidentally, right when I'm in the throes of a weakness I'd like to ignore? So I've been video game free all this time (yeah!). And I find that it gets easier and easier to remain so. Now, I'm a cookie addict, been at it the last few days and at my age the consequences are big and immediate. I've stopped exercising for several weeks too. Does it feel good? Well, kind of, when I first shove that cookie in my mouth or make that excuse that "tomorrow" I'll start exercising again. But when I have to exhale to zip up my pants or I step on that scale...it feels lousy. It is definately time to get on my knees and plead for the grace and the strength to get back on track.
Ruth said something very wise at class the other night. She said we tend to tell ourselves that since we blew it eating once, we may as well keep on over-eating, and try again tomorrow. The truth is, she says, we can start right that very moment. Just because we overeat in one situation, doesn't mean the rest of the day has to follow the same course. Wonderful advice. So here it goes for me. I'm obviously drowning out nagging feelings of one source or another. I need to take stock of myself, pull myself together and dedicate my will to God's guidance. Love you all.
This is so true for me too! I have lost 36 lbs in the past four months and I find myself sometimes craving the old way of life! I want to stay slimmer, I want to stay on my diet, but I also want to enjoy what I am eating. Sometimes it seems like those things can be so far apart. I have noticed that when I am really down on myself, it is much harder to keep to the course. I think we give Satan a toe hold in when we put ourselves down and don't respect what we have been given. Sometimes, I find it easier if I just say a quick prayer and ask for His help in maintaining. He seems very willing to help me through the day.
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